My dear mum has terminal stage 4 lung cancer....

She seems to be detreiating every day. I'm feeling anxious of not knowing what to expect. 

I just can't bare to watch this anymore. Fills my stomach with a horrible empty feeling  knowing what's to come. She's Sitting there whilst I dry her hair, almost child like, nearlly falling of the chair. Occasionally she talks to me, and nothing is making sense. I'm holding back the tears as I try and talk back 'normal'. I have just made her some lunch, she's struggling to even put her food on a fork and several times falling asleep. Then watching the tv, but really just staring into nothing.  This is totally breaking my heart. I'm really struggling with it now. Seeing her deteriorate in front of my eyes is unbearable! I want my mum back