I need some support please. I am so stressed about everything that I have been hitting my arm. First was slaps, now I hit it, because I am so frustrated and angry that it has to come out. I need help please
It's just so hard. Chris came home Friday. I don't know if it's the new cardiac tabs he's on but he feels nauseous and is eating very little, from someone who ate the world due to the steroids. He's been in bed most the day. He tried to go fishing with a friend this morning but was back in no time, he said he just couldn't do it. His mobility is getting so bad. I am so worried I may have to take unpaid leave from work, worried I'll loose my grade at work, I'm a sister, and maybe even loose my job. I have cried so much today, I don't know who to turn to. Seeing a Macmillan CAB woman tomorrow as I want to see what we can claim if we have no wages coming in. I know carers allowance is one. Just struggling Jules xx
I know how hard it is to see the decline in Chris; nothing about this illness is easy and with children to think off too something has to give and its usually our emotions. Nothing can prepare you for what is happening just now and though it is a worry regarding future finances and job situation, please make the most of the time you have with Chris in the here and now; no one can manage it all nor should you try to be super human when some things are just more important. I was offered 6 months unpaid leave but in the end only took 5days holiday as the last days of hubby's illness happened very quickly. Get the best advice you can when you speak to MacMillan/CAB tomorrow but I know your heart will take you in the direction you need to go. Hear to lend an ear when you need to offload as others were for me. Virtual hugs are all I can send but my thoughts are with you all. Jules
Mandy I know its late but is there anyone who can come and be with you all just now. If Chris needs help then you are there for him and the tears will fall no matter what we say or do. If you feel he needs more help then call the the GP and see if you can get the nurses in first thing tomorrow. It;s what I had to do but I know every circumstance is different. You need support asap and the night-times are the worst. How is Will? Jules x
Struggling at times. We are so close and support each other. He is my rock as I am his. I have many people I can call or text but I just can't reach out to them. I want to but I can't. I do my brother more than anyone but I just can't, and I don't know why. I will see how he is tomorrow. I need to be stronger and less emotional. I really need to dig deep else I won't make this journey. Thank you Jules for being there for me, you don't know how much your words mean xx
Mandy this forum was so good to me and I still rely on it at times. Try and get some sleep and tomorrow follow your heart and reach out for the help you need to get you through this time. You are emotionally shattered and cannot go it alone - no one should have to and Will be helped to. Your love for each other is strong but you will both benefit from extra support. Stay in touch and if needs be you can ring the nurses on this forum tomorrow for added support. Be kind to yourself. Am going to get some shut eye myself now as need to be up at 6 tomorrow. Hugs Jules x
