Hi I am new to this forum and have never done anything like this before, however I have no one else I can talk to without upsetting them.  My mum was diagnosed with Lung Cancer in 2013. It was Nsclc, Stage 3a. They said it was non operable but treated her curative with chemo radiation. Luckily the tumour shrunk and became operable. That was in June2014. She has been NED since. Two months ago she found a lump above her collarbone. the  Dr thought it was a cyst as she is fit and well and walks everyday. She has a lot of pain in her right shoulder and has done since the op so we put it down to that as did the Dr. Last week after some more tests we were told she has an aggressive recurrent tumour in her lung which has invaded all the muscle and  tissue  It is inoperable and no longer Curative. Any chemo is just life extending. We are all devastated and I am struggling to come to terms with it. When I am with my mum I feel strong and fine and enjoy being with her., as soon as I go away from her I fall to pieces and keep crying. I don't wanna feel like this and I don't know how to cope or deal with the situation. I'm fine caring for her but I also have 3 children. The worst part is not knowing if she has 6 months 8 months or maybe a year. It is awful living with the uncertainty and Knowing my mum is gonna die. She is only 66. I find it hard to believe as although her pain is so bad she is quite fit. I look at her and I think. How ? Any advice would be appreciated. I'm so sad