Hi,
I'm not sure how this works, it's all pretty new to me. I just wanted to reach out to see if there is anyone in the same/similar situation as me because I'm feeling quite alone. My mum was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2002 when I was 6 years old. She has been fighting for 13 years and I am so proud of her. In 2007 it came back stage 3 bone cancer and now the cancer has gone to her brain. Her body is tired from so much treatment and the doctors are suggesting that perhaps it's time to stop treating her and let the disease take its course. Oddly, I am not angry with them. I feel like I should be, they should be keeping my mum alive not leaving her to die. But I'm her carer, I'm with her 24/7 whilst completing my first year of uni. I see her everyday and I know how much pain she is in and how tired her body is. All she does now is sleep. She is very confused when she wakes up and often says things that don't make any sense. How do I deal with this? I try to keep my cool because it is not her fault and I should not get mad at her, but it's so hard to reason with someone when they are so confused. she's so tired I feel like I can't talk to her anymore. And I'm scared, I don't know if I'm ready to handle everything that will come after she's gone. Also, no doctor is able to tell me how long she has left. I know that they can't always predict, but I feel like I need to know so I can get myself ready. She had a seizure last week and was in hospital for a while. I was with her when it happened. The doctor says she will have another most likely, and that terrifies me because what if I'm not there when it happens. I don't even want to think about her being alone.
