I am a 27 year old divorced mother of two who thought 11 months ago, when I met my partner, that things were finally looking up. Six months into our relationship in August last year, he was diagnosed with colon cancer, it had penetrated and gone through the bowel wall and had spread to the lymphatic system. He had surgery to remove the tumour and has had 8 of his 9 chemo sessions - last one is this coming Monday and has his CT scan the following day. The last few months have been horrendous. I moved about 60 miles away from my home town to be with him before we found out about the cancer and I feel so completely alone. I'm trying my best to be as supportive as possible, both practically and emotionally but he is pushing me away. I've been with him through it all, and he says cancer changes your perspective on life completely. I desperately hope it's not all for nothing. I love him so much and I'm being as understanding as I can. I'm just so worried of being hurt, I'm scared that I'm doing all the practical and emotional support for him and his five year old son but I'm not getting any myself and he's probably going to end it anyway. Please someone, tell me this is íprobably just because of where he's at right now. If anyone has any tips on ' how not to go insane' it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.