Oh God I feel for you. Going through this with Dad - I think I'm starting to accept that his fight is coming to end but struggling through the mental and physical pain is like nothing he's ever encountered before and he simply cannot cope any more. Each time I visit he looks more and more unwell. Dad is in bed most of the day and it is agony seeing him going off food and losing so much weight. I try to just be there for him as much as possible - whether it's preparing a small meal, hoovering, decluttering, baking a cake, sharing a joke - moments like that all help to take the edge off. I wish I could take away Dad's pain and suffering. He doesn't really want to ensure more chemo and I can understand why. He thinks at most it would buy him a few more months, but I live in hope. It's all I have. I pray, even though I am not a religious person. The biggest comfort to me is knowing we aren't alone in this. It's only when we are in the hospital and reading these message boards we realise just how prolific cancer is :( XX

Thinking of you. Please do reach out any time.