Hi

I thought I'd join to see if the group's right for me. I read about it on social media. My partner Tim was diagnosed with terminal cancer just over a year ago and given 3 to 5 years. It's been very hard with some bereavements and other family problems thrown in, as well as a stressful house move, which has felt like a race against time. I don't feel like I'm coping most of the time. The cancer was put in a fairly dormant state with treatments but now it seems to be coming back in his ribs and spine. I don't think too much about the future because I can't face it. At least the consultant is talking about further chemo and radiotherapy rather than writing Tim off. That's something. My previous partner died very suddenly after a sudden heart attack, and I dread to think of going through anything like that again..... I was in deep shock for 6 months or so, thinking he was with me in the room and talking to him for hours and hours every day..... it really wasn't healthy. 3 months after losing him in 2022, I lost my best friend to cancer and I'm still trying to accept that. Anyway, I'm feeling lost and have so many intense unpleasant emotions. I think it might help talking to someone going through something similar or someone who's been through it. I find friends and family shun me a bit as they can't face my sadness.