Hi Caggles, 

You are definitely not selfish - you've been caring for your mum for 3 years and obviously you want what is best for her; you have been by her side for every single appointment and I am sure your mum is very grateful for all your kindness and support. It's great that the cancer is at bay and there is no significant change apart from the fact that her cancer markers in her blood have doubled and I can imagine it is a bit difficult to know what to do whether to leave things for a month to see if the tumours will start growing again or take a break from chemotherapy. It's a very difficult decision to have to take and ultimately I think all you can do really is see what your mum wants to do and keep on supporting her in her choices making sure she talks things through with her oncologist. It sounds like her oncologist has agreed to the chemotherapy and that it is just going to be one drug every three weeks so hopefully this will give your mum the reassurance she needs, that they are doing something to fight those tumours without it being hopefully too strenuous. 

I hope that whatever your mum ends up deciding to do, that it will be the best thing for her and that if she does have the chemotherapy I hope that it will help keep things at bay. 

Best wishes to you and your mum, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator