When I read you look at your husband asleep in bed and cry, he's your world, my heart went out to you. I do the exact same thing and find myself quietly sobbing and stroking my husbands head as he sleeps. My husband is 57 and recently diagnosed with terminal throat & Lung Cancer. I'm beyond heartbroken, devastated and terrified to be loosing him, he's my entire universe and I can't picture my future without him. This disease is so so cruel. I'm so so sorry to hear about your husband. I totally, totally feel you.

Hi.  My husband same diagnosis.  I get you.  I find myself watching my man, trying to "capture" him.  All a bit unreal, isn't it ? 

My way of coping, as there is nothing I can do to take the cancer away, is that I've decided to look at this as a gift of intense closeness with him...a gift not every couple have.  I'd rather it wasn't this way, however...

I wish you strength.   He may be feeling guilty that he is going to leave.  But you don't know what the future is, it's not a given that you will be left behind.  Whatever happens  you will be stronger for this, knowing that you stood together, as a unit.

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You are the first person, apart from him, I have "talked" about it to.  

My Husband also has just been diagnosed with the same. He is in hospital in a lot of pain. He has had his first go of hormone treatment. I am just concerned as to how long until he is out of severe pain?