When I read you look at your husband asleep in bed and cry, he's your world, my heart went out to you. I do the exact same thing and find myself quietly sobbing and stroking my husbands head as he sleeps. My husband is 57 and recently diagnosed with terminal throat & Lung Cancer. I'm beyond heartbroken, devastated and terrified to be loosing him, he's my entire universe and I can't picture my future without him. This disease is so so cruel. I'm so so sorry to hear about your husband. I totally, totally feel you.