I feel like I’m going insane, my husband is 52 and has been diagnosed with terminal kidney cancer with mets in lung, all lymph nodes and spine. I am a newly qualified nurse (1yr), I am really struggling with work in general being at work is a trigger due to it being diabetic/ endocrine and acute medical. I have reduced my hours to 30 a week to try and help me to cope and now I’m worrying about money we claim all we can as I’m pretty clued up on all that stuff. I don’t know what I am trying to say here perhaps I’m venting we lost my mother in law (more like a mother) in Nov last year and nursed her at home whilst trying to finish my nursing degree and had time off for that although most of it was annual leave I have taken sick leave from work recently but the “my husband has cancer” card is wearing quite thin, the sympathetic nature of my colleagues particularly my manager is waining quite fast. I have applied for part time positions with better pay although the knock backs I receive are mainly because my husband is ill just feels like I am being discriminated against. Coming out of work altogether is not really an option due to car finance and paying bills we have been on benefits I was a carer for my daughter for years and don’t want to go back there. I did my nursing degree so we could have a better quality of life and enjoy each other now the kids have grown up and fown the nest and I just truly feel my life is now over at the grand old age of 42. I am drowning and I don’t mind admitting defeat everyone always says you are so strong keep going but in reality these people have not walked in my shoes and I’m just very tired
