My husband was diagnosed in October with metastatic melanoma, he’s 53 & it was a bolt out of the blue!! It’s left us completely devastated, weve only been married two years although together 22 yrs. He’s been doing so well this last week the best he’s been since diagnosis and then a few days ago he went downhill back to feeling sick and exhausted :( Today I feel angry at the world, I hate my friends for being able to go on holiday or sit in the garden laughing and enjoyIng life , I would give anything in this world to make him better to be able to live a little. Does anyone else feel like this? I feel so selfish and guilty for having these feelings.