hello. My husband has recently been diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. this came as a shock after a pulmonary embolism and fluid in lungs. I am caring for him at home but am disabled myself and get very tired and sore. he is great and wants me to rest etc. My problem just now is that I can't stop crying. If i meet some on e new, even on phone re treatment etc, or a neighbour or even if i see someone we know for first time since diagnosis- i cry, big ugly gasping tears. I cry each morning and at night and even as i write this. People are kind but i am worn out with all the crying.. i distract by being busy but that leaves me done in at end of the day too. How do I become more resilient? I have always been an emotional person but this feels too much. And i hate crying in front of him. He retired last year and we were looking froward to having a lovely retirement together. I feel robbed of that and set adrift somehow. Can anyone help with the crying aspect. I know it is anticipatory grief but I am not dealing well with it. Thank you.
