My wife was diagnosed with anal cancer last year and has radiotherapy. At first scan post treatment she was clear, but at the second, at six months, we were told it had spread
She started chemo, but had a bad reaction and was hospitalised. After a pause they restarted at a lower dose, and had another bad reaction.
This week we saw her specialist who told us it would be unfair to her, and pointless to try again, so she now has months left.
We are both very emotional as expected, but is like to know if it is normal for me as her carer to bed having selfish thoughts about after?
I'm feeling very guilty as I want to just concentrate on making what's left of her life as good as it can possibly be, and I cannot believe I'm thinking of myself at such a time
