My bf was diagnosed with bladder and prostrate cancer earlier this year. He never allows me to be with him for any of his appointments, which I struggle to accept, but I guess we are all different. 

He is due to have an endoscopic biopsy, as suspected secondary may be present in his pancreas. I kept asking when his appointment was, and mentioned that he will need a lift home from hospital after this procedure. At first he was adamant that he'd get a taxi home, or get one of his work mates to collect him. Today I asked him if he had everything ready, and told him even my teenage children said I really should be there tomorrow and I should insist. I called him, and said I needed to be there but he told me his son who lives even further away from him than I do, is collecting him. Naturally I was a bit miffed, and felt rather hurt that he didn't take me up on my offer, so I said I will be there regardless, even just to give him a hug. So now he told me he's just sent a message to the Consultant's secretary, cancelling his procedure tomorrow. I feel hurt that he won't even let me be there and would go to such lengths  but he insists on going to mine and wanted me to make him my next of kin.