My husband had cancer when he was a teenager and because of the cancer he had to remove a testicle. He is now in his 30s and he's been feeling a lump on his remaining testicle. He is now waiting to be seen by the hospital. But he's told me he would rather die than loose his testicle. I'm struggling to see where he is coming from because we were just blessed with a child (which we thought we could never have). I would love my husband without a penis, his testicle or any other part of his body. I'm trying to understand why he's not fighting for our life together, for our baby. Because now more than last time he's got something to live for. I work with children and I've seen what a parents death can do to a child no matter the circumstances. As we've struggled to have children, I couldn't fathom choosing not to be here with my child. I've listened to him and he believes he wouldn't be a man and than if he was still alive he would be clinically depressed and a shell of what he was, so what kind of father would he be. I tried explaining that he's not even had the appointment yet so try not to get hung up on it until everything has been checked. I also said your not giving you're self a chance to adjust to the circumstance and that you don't know who or how you'd be if it happens and he shouldn't write himself off. 
Am I being selfish? 

How can I support him and help him get through his emotional turmoil?