Hello, and thank you for posting.

I'm sorry for what you have been through with your husband, it has been a very difficult time for you. Other people may well come forward with their own experiences on here, or you could also move this post on to the coping with loss section of the forum where others may have experiences to share too. 

Everyone deals with illness, and death, differently. And hearing the news that you have a terminal illness can lead to some people not reacting necessarily how you would expect. Some people find it hard to show emotion as they want to protect their loved ones, some are in a form of denial and don't want to talk about it. Here is some information from Marie curies website about those who don't want to talk, to help you understand that it is not unusual to have the reaction your husband had.

Losing someone you love is always going to be one of the most difficult things you are very likely to face in your life so having the right support is essential. You have reached out here onto this forum which was brave to do. I think if you can try and discuss this also with your GP that may help too in finding support for you too.

I have placed here some information on grief, and within it it also has a link to CRUSE, the bereavement charity.

Take care, and if you feel you want to talk any of this through it may be useful to chat with one of the nurses on our helpline.  The number to call is Freephone 0808 800 4040 and the lines are open from 9am till 5pm Monday to Friday.

Sarah.