Found a large painful breast lump this week

Dont know how this appeared as I wash daily under my breasts. Not felt it before. Was supposed to have urgent diagnostic breast appointment today, but unfortunately Dr called in sick. I'd psyched myself up this morning preparing for the worst. It was devastating to now have to wait 4 more days due to  ank holiday. Took wind out of my sails. I felt physically sick. 4 more days of if buts maybes.  And sleepless nights with pain.