SarahA47

Hi, I'm a 47 year old, mum of two and have been married to my lovely husband for twenty years. I have very recently lost my beautiful Mum to stage four brain cancer. I lost my Grandma three years ago to dementia and breast cancer. My uncle is also undergoing chemotherapy for cancer. Life has been quite difficult, however I have always tried to make sense of things and have found this forum to be of immense help and comfort. I am ambling through each day at the moment trying to come to terms with everything and making positive plans for my future, it's what Mum would have wanted. Some days I just want to cry and sit in my pyjamas, but as Mum would say 'life goes on'. There is no right or wrong way to grieve, we are all unique and have different coping mechanisms. At the moment, mine is to go and have a chat with Mum at her grave. Thankfully, no one thinks I'm barmy, as they are all in the same boat too. It's quite a lovely little community at the cemetery where Mum is, so it has become a place of solace and quiet reflection for me, just until I can let go. For everyone who is suffering from cancer, watching a loved one go through this, or coming to terms with the loss of your loved one, my heart truly goes out to you. In the future, when I have had some time to come to terms with this, I would like to help in some small way to raise awareness, so that Mum's life is remembered. I would like to make her proud! Love to you all xxxx