I have recently lost my husband of 31 years to cancer. He fought hard for 3 years and 8 months after being given a very short time to live and I did all I could to help by good food, support and love. During this time he was mostly loving and the husband I knew but some things about him changed and he found it hard to accept that he was impotent. I found after his death that he had been sourcing pornography and using sexually orientated chat rooms. It shocked me but did not change my love for him and I still believe that he truly loved me but I would just like reassurance that terminal illness can change people and make them do things that are totally out of character. To think that he stopped loving me would be more than I could bear.
