I was very close to my nan and rushed her to hospital her heart stopped and they rushed me out they got her heart started but I had to make the decision to stop the medication that was keeping her heart going I was alone and I know I made the right decision but I still feel guilty I then lost my mum to cancer on 4/12/2019 then 18 days later I lost my auntie can stop crying and feel so guilty bout nan is this normal and when will I feel normal again
