58 year old wife, mum and totally devoted nanny with a new grand daughter due in May. In 2011 I was diagnosed with stage 3 adeno carcinoma of the right lung. Had several months of chemo and radio which was just gruesome. I feel like a right woos because I know other people who had the same sort of treatment as me and just gone on with their lives after. I was left with "residual" tumour? and/or severe scarring in my right lung. So painful! Last year there were hot spots and nodules found in my left lung which I very recently discovered are "not to worry about" - so guess what - now its back, same place in my right lung.... meetings next week with surgery an option this time - it wasn't an option last time, more chemo. more radio??? I just don't know what to do this time, if its gonna keep coming back I dont see the point, maybe I'm just a bit low at the moment, my poor husband wants to me try everything, my oncologist and Macmillan nurse are just amazing and have always been fantastic I feel I'm even letting them down if I don't keep fighting but I'm tired - or very very selfish........ I cant even decide that!
