I was diagnosed with kidney cancer st4, the cancer growing around the vein leading to my heart ... inoperable!!! This was a little over two years ago, I had a breakdown, seizures, unable to walk & have no memories of anything from that first six months. Apparently I was completely convinced that the other patients were smoking weed & making bombs. Generally the professor & his team have brought the cancer under control, I still have a bizarre bunch of side affects. What I struggle to deal with most is the pressure on my mental health, the wait between the scan & the results, bright lights, flashing lights or anything coming into my face, my partner chewing his supper, trying to be cheerful for visitors and a whole lot more stuff. I feel a really deep anger & a loneliness that,s difficult to put into words.
