Morning....my husband has been diagnosed with neck and throat cancer...he's had six weeks of daily radiation and is now through the other side trying to put on weight and getting back to what is a normal life......
It seems harder now trying to get back to normal and accepting life with cancer, every lump or bump sends me I to a panic.....it's like not knowing what to do apart from exist on a day to day basis....I see Cancer adverts everywhere but I still, after everything we have been through, can't quite connect that that is our life, it's all so surreal....
At the cancer clinic the reality of it all sinks in, so many people going through so much it crushes me......
I feel at odds with life the present is scary and the future is sometimes frightening...I don't know how to accept it all and move on properly.....I coped well with the diagnosis and looking after him with the treatment and the awful afterwards but the getting back to normality is so much harder.....
