Hi Everyone,
I feel so alone.I was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer a year ago. I was not a candidate for surgery as the tumour was too high,so I had 5 months of chemotherapy. It was successful with no spread, and resulted in a ‘complete clinical response’. I thought that I was cured, however I have since learned the 3 year survival rate of people in my position is 54%. I am obsessed with dying and can’t decide how to move on- should I blow everything and have a blast for the next 2 years or wait and see? I have tried so many things, I just wish I could know one way or the other. Does anyone else feel like I do?
