Where do I start this has been a year that's tested me physically and mentally. I apologies that this is a long story. In april of this year my husband and I decided that we would try for a baby which we did but I'm may only being 6 weeks I had a miscarriage with a serious hemorrhage which led me to being rushed to A&E where I stayed for a couple of days. After a D&C I was sent home to rest and I was ok for a couple of weeks.

In June I started to get chest pain feeling fatigued so saw a private respiratory specialist as my lung had spontaneous collapsed a few years before but no all was fine lung wise. The respiratory specialist asked me on the way out had I looked into it being my breast implants which I had in 2018, I said it's something I'd look into which I did and I found that this specific brand had be recalled In 2019 due to links with lymphoma. I was frightened so I called my breast surgeon and explained what had been going on and that due to having pain, feeling, fatigued, sick I would like to have them out but she wouldn't do it, so I found a surgeon who would who was amazing sent some of the implant and tissue off for testing it came back clear of lymphoma but had mild chronic inflammation. I thought I would heal from the operation and everything would be ok this was 30th Septembem.

No slowly over the next couple of weeks I felt worse I was thinking could this be due to the miscarriage but I was told NO there's obviously something going on but what. I started to feel more fatigued, needing to sleep on the day, still feeling sick, sore throat ear pain, strange pains in my head and bone pain. I was taken to A&E because they though I had meningitis, lumbar puncture and bloods and a couple of nights in hospital it came back clear and I was sent home. Bone pain still continue in my legs, knee, arms, ankle and I had started getting tingling feelings in my legs and arm, and feeling cold really fatigued now, nausea and strarting to have problems with my bowels going to the loo 7-8 times a day being in constant pain after eating different consistency and it's up and down every day which is becoming a big problem. Still eating the same amount  but going from 45.8kg to 43.2kg in under a week.

I called the doctor and she said this wasn't all due to an autoimmune disease as I had bloods to test and my inflammatory marker test were done about 2months ago along with a full blood come which was fine just lacking a bit of vitamin D. The doctors said they were lost to and that maybe a Rheumatologist could help. Spoke to her on the phone and she said perhaps I have Fibromyalgia. Haven't seen her yet to confirm.

This is where I am really starting to worry. I went to Thailand in 2019 for 18days when I got home I noticed a small mole on my tummy so for over the last couple of years I've been keeping an eye on it but over the last 3weeks it had got a bit bigger so I thought I would do to a dermatologist which I did today. He said it appeared to be fine but noticed on my back there was a mole in which I saw back in January and didn't think anything of it and forgot because of the location. The dermatologist said it looked highly suspicious due to it being two different shades oddly shaped and size it had definitely grown a quit a bit from the picture I took in January. He booked me in to have it removed and to have the sample sent off for a biopsy which would have been on the 14th December but I got a call from him when I got home to ask me to come and have it removed today which I have done but I'm beyond scared because I have two children and I'm only 31 that something bad is going to happen and maybe that mole is the answer to why I have been feeling poorly and over time not getting any better and a reason for all those symptoms.

I have never been So frightened in my life and I've gone through some crap this year but I'm kicking my self that I should of gone in January to get the mole checked. I could if prevented this. I am praying that everything will be ok but I know there is something going on with my body and with how bad I feel, the pain I'm in, nausea and weight lost I think I maybe on for some bad news. Trying to remain positive but I can't I'm thinking of my children.