Referred to breast clinic and I'm a mess

Hey

I am 34 with 2 young girls. One is 5 and the other is 3 next week. I breastfed them both for 16 months and 20 months so I am used to feeling my boobs haha

Anyway for about 6 to 8 weeks I have had pain. Everything I googled was telling me I was fine. So I ignored it. But after 2 periods and the pain not going I thought I would just get checked out as I also got some odd itching.  I also noticed some odd marks on breast. On the examination she felt for about 2 seconds and said there is a clear lump there you need to be seen at the clinic. 

I now can't stop checking for lumps and bumps.  I have also had swollen neck for a while after what an ear infection but I'm now convinced it's all tied.

I know I shouldn't worry and most cases to the clinic are fine. But I'm sick with worry and I have convinced myself I have breast cancer. My appointment is on the 29th. Day after my daughters 3rd birthday. That's 8 days of feeling this ***.

I have also seen a tik tok and she has breast cancer and she said about symptoms before.

Tingling in left arm. Which I have.

Swollen armpit and rash. Which I have.

Migranes coming back after 12 years. I used to get migranes and in the last month have had 3!!

I'm so scared  

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    Hi Charp,

    A very warm welcome to our forum.

    Can I first of all assure you that it is perfectly normal to feel as you do whilst witing to be seen at the breast clinic. Most of us find that our emotions are all over the place, we cry a lot and become quite short with our loved ones. It is also usual to keep checking your lumps and bumps. This only makes them sorer and more pronounced. Our imaginations also play tricks on us, taking us to all sorts of dark places.

    Irrespective of the outcome, you will find this easier to deal with once you know what you're dealing with. we usually advise people to steer clear of social media, google, etc whilst waiting. Much of the information you get is poorly researched, out of date and aimed at the more spectacular cases. This only serves to heighten our anxiety.

    I was diagnosed with breast cancer 12 years ago. I had a second bout the following year. Treatment was a challenge, but since then I feel mentally stronger and I still live a busy and fulfilled life. I sincerely hope that all goes well for you on 29th. Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Going through a similarish experience, when my doctor found a lump I died inside and I've been sick with worry ever since. Im so worried for the appointment its all I can think about. I just keep trying to remember that the majority of lumps are benign 

  • Hi, I'm 38 with 2 boys., Try not fo let your mind run wild, this time is the hardest the unknown plays mind tricks on you. 

    Take someone with you even if they have too wait in the carpark, .

    Don't Google anything and just think that it's good your going because it will be sorted no matter what they find. 
     

    Good luck on the 29th xxx 

  • Hi Charp, I'm 33, the mother of a 2 year old gorgeous girl. I feel the exact way about my appointment, it's the 9th of December for me. I wasn't able to breastfeed my baby girl and I remember wishing my breasts would be cut off because I felt I have failed being a mother(postpartum depression and all that). I always check my breast in the shower and I've noticed this big lump, I was able to pinch it between my fingers and kind of moving it, bringing it forward to the top of my chest. I've called my fiance but he couldn't feel anything (or maybe didn't want to worry me) and the GP seen me the following day but didn't feel anything either. She asked me to comr back in a fortnight and at that appointment she was able to pinpoint the lump and refered me to breast care. I am now terrified that I have cancer and I am distraught at the thought of leaving my baby girl without a mommy. 

    I completely understand what you feel and I pray that me and each of you lovely ladies get a good result and get to live a long, healthy life with your loved ones. Xx

  • Hey lexic

    From what I understand if you can move it it's likely to be a cyst so fingers crossed  

    I keep checking my boobs and am hyper aware of my left one. I keep trying to convince myself it's just a cyst. But then my girls do something cute and I think what if it's camcer and I don't see them grow up.

    I suffer with major anxiety and depression and since loosing my dad suddenly any medical stuff just worries me. 

    I hope and pray everything is OK with you!! Keep me updated xx

  • Hello
     

    I hope you are doing as best you can. I just wanted to comment as I saw that same tick tok and have been following along on her journey on Instagram. When I saw her post I thought oh my god I have all that and became panicked. I had three breast examinations and all fine, I even went to the breast clinic and they said I was fine.

     

    I however just can't believe them, why do I still have pains and ach, why does my should and arm hurt. 
     

    I just wanted to let you know your not alone, I found all these threads so helpful and if you need anything I al here. 
     

    xx

  • Thanks. Annoyingly my appointment is at school pick up time and so mum is having to pick my girls up. So I will have to be on my own unfortunately. 

    I have severe anxiety and depression so Google is stupidly my friend as I always Google stuff which in turn doesn't help. I am trying some mindfulness though to relax.

    Thank you for your well wishes snow-drop x

  • Hi mifnatt777

    I love that couple, and I hope to god she is OK. I was so sad to hear her news and I am following her journey. I'm glad you are OK, but sad you are still worried. Keep pushing for checks as to why you are in pain!!!

  • Thank you ever so much.

     

    I know exactly what I should be doing. Staying away from social media and leaving boobs alone. But hey here I am doing it.

    I have planned a busy week.

    Secret sale for avon, seeing my best friend and her baby, seeing other best friend for lunch, daughters birthday party, and then I'm off on the 29th so going to book for a massage before hand haha 

     

    Thank you for all the support x

  • Same!! I just think it's a cyst or something else. Fingers crossed for us both.

    When she said she found a lump I burst into tears!

    When is your appointment? Rachel?