I'm so glad you had a good night's sleep. 

Yes I'm much calmer now I have stopped messing with them too, but I know how difficult it can be. It's like we automatically touch them without realising sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy that my ultrasound went well and it has stopped most of my worry. I just still have a little niggle, which I think is normal whilst waiting for more tests and since I've spent so long convinced that it's got to be serious. But I feel much better than I did. Like you said, our own mind terrorise us. We can be our own worst enemy sometimes. 

I really hope it goes well for you tomorrow. Yes I'm not sure what they'll do, as I was referred for the tests directly from my GP and I went private for the ultrasound to save such a long wait. But hopefully you get some reassurance, at least. 

I hope both your Daughter's and RoseDreams and your daughter are all feeling better soon. It's the worst timing, when you already have so much worry going on. Myself and my Daughters had Covid in October and they were absolutely fine. I was unwell but nothing major, thankfully. Don't forget that any more lymph nodes that pop up now, could be down to that if you've recently had covid.

Good luck tomorrow...I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you xxx 

Hi Danielle and Sallx, 

Just checking in to say hi and hope you're both doing ok?

Letting you know that you're both doing great and you will get through this and will soon be feeling lots better xxx

Oh bless you, that's so lovely. I hope you and your daughter are feeling ok. 

I hope you're managing to take your mind off it all too whilst waiting for the results. It's all going to be ok and just pop on here anytime you need to talk. 

Sending lots of love xxx

Hi Sallx and Rose,

Thanks for the lovely replies, hope you're both feeling well today? 

I had my hospital appt with the consultant. He was really lovely but as predicted, just referred me for an ultrasound of the raised glands, which will be in the next two weeks. So I have a further two weeks of fear  

On the plus side, he struggled to locate both the raised glands that I can feel and said he doesn't really feel anything (they're definitely there as the GP felt them). I said you have to press really hard to feel the one above my collarbone and he said- if I needed to worry about a gland I'd be able to feel it, I wouldn't need to press hard. 

I told him I'd also been having a low level dull pain in my abdomen but he wrote this off as anxiety. I'm still concerned it's more than that as it's been constant for two weeks. It's not sore to the touch but it's almost like a minor stitch. I'm hoping they will scan there too just to be sure. 

Have you had any news yet Rose? How's your anxiety been today Sallx? Xx

Hey Danielle,

I'm so glad your appointment went well - sounds like you had a good and thorough consultant. Sorry you have further waiting but great news that he's not overly concerned. 

No news here unfortunately but my consultant said approx a week which would take us to next Wed so fingers crossed it won't be too much longer. I'm also expecting a call from a clinical nurse specialist next week so I'll try to prep some questions ready over the weekend xxx

I hope you both enjoy the weekend and keep us posted xxx

Aww I'm glad your consultant was nice and that he has referred you for tests. Its good that he can't really feel the lymph nodes! I think they can sometimes feel bigger to us than they actually are. And I know that two weeks will feel like a lifetime, but try anything you can to take your mind off it and to take some reassurance from what the doctor has said. Sorry you've been having pain in your abdomen. Is it a particular side? It can be frustrating when they put things down to anxiety as sometimes it feels like they're just palming you off, but then anxiety can cause a lot of symptoms so it's hard to know. I know last week I was questioning myself loads as I just didn't know what was caused by anxiety and what wasn't. 

I'm okay thanks. I'm not thinking about it constantly now, so that's good. But I am still worried about the chest x-ray on Monday in case they find something. Tonight I was shampooing my hair and my head hurt, so I had a feel and found a lump on my head! I haven't bumped it or anything so I've no idea what it is. It's probably completely unrelated but I'm sick of finding lumps everywhere. 

Anyway, sorry for the moan. Rose, I'm so sorry you are still waiting for your results. It must be so difficult. Its good that you're going to prep some questions, as it's easy to forget them in the moment. You're both being amazingly strong and hopefully all of this worry will have been for nothing. Stay strong lovelies Xxx

Morning lovely,

I'm the same, I feel like it's one thing after another! When you're conscious and anxious about your health, you seem to keep finding more things wrong! 
I thought I would feel more relaxed last night, but I've gone the opposite way and feel more tense. Didn't sleep well, am worrying about this pain in my side :-( which of course just makes it worse. 
I hope we all manage a decent weekend! I'll be thinking of you Monday- let us know how it goes. No doubt it'll be another example of feeling worried for nothing, but even so, I'm sending you the best of luck xx

How did the xray go? Any news? 

Been hoping all is well xx

Hi Rose and Danielle..ahh so sorry I haven't replied Danielle. I have only just seen your message. 

I hope you have both had a nice weekend. Have you received your results yet Rose? 

Unfortunately I had to miss my appointment due to the snow. My appointment was early in the morning so I had made arrangements for the school run and then due to the snow it all changed. So I asked them if I could rearrange but don't have a new date yet. Xxx