In December 2020 I complained to GP about changes in my period, pelvic pain and pain during sex. She didn't seem worried and I was due my smear test anyway. I went and had my smear done and heard back a couple of months later (pandemic) that it was showing abnormal cells and that I was on a waiting list for colposcopy. I started experiencing blood tinged discharge and spotting in this time. Eventually in September 2021 I got an appointment for colposcopy. The Dr looked at my cervix and took two biopsies. I then heard back within a couple of weeks to say I needed LOOP/ LLETZ treatment, It just said CIN but not much more info. I had my LOOP done this past week, the whole experience was upsetting and I felt rushed and like I couldn't ask questions. The DR told me they were "cutting out a section of my cervix to check for cancer", I was taken aback because I thought I was having cells treated and just wanted to understand what she meant so I asked and her response was "you don't have gl have it but would you rather have cancer just sitting there". I also found out after when I phoned my GP that it was CIN3.
 

im feeling full of anxiety and fear. I lost my mum recently to cancer and feel traumatised by it all. 
 

- how likely is it for them to find cancer behind CIN3 cells? Is this something that happens often?

- if there was any early stage cancer, how does this affect having babies? 

- is CIN3 really bad? 

- how long has the HPV been there to turn in to CIN3? Could it have progressed quicker because I have been on immunosuppressive medication?
 

I've tried to Google but it overwhelming me and the more random bits of info I read online the more my mental health is spiralling. 
 

my life felt like it was starting to look a bit brighter after the grief and trauma of losing my mum. I was about to start my own family and now it feels like everything is in doubt.

thank you for any light anyone can shed x