Hi I am new to the forum and I am really scared. I saw my GP a couple of weeks ago as I felt a lump in my left breast. I was hoping she would say it was ok, but said it was abnormal so she referred me. I started to worry a lot (I am on medication for anxiety) so my husband booked a private consultation for me. He was convinced everything would be ok, and was shocked when it wasn't. The consultant was the same person running the NHS department, and he said it was fine for me to keep that appointment the following week, and that it looked like breast cancer.
I was strong on the night he told me (after an examination) but since then I have fallen to pieces. He told me it was treatable and I would survive it, but now my imagination has gone to a very dark place. I have a history of cancer in my family, and I even went to find out before if I needed genetic testing, but they just said I was moderate risk.
My mum passed away from brain tumours at 61, my nan from ovarian cancer when she was 65, and my aunt had breast cancer at 63. I am only 47 and so so scared, and I really can't cope emotionally. I am really scared what the mammogram will show tomorrow, and I find it hard to believe I will be ok.
I first did the Race For Life with my mum in 2007, and she passed away from cancer very quickly in 2008. I have done it nearly every year since, and I even did it last Sunday with my son as I was determined to do my bit. I cannot believe this is happening to me. I don't know whether to ask the doctor to increase my anxiety meds as I have been withdrawing from everything right now.
I don't know if I have the strength to face this. I worry even if I get through it, I will never be the same as I have feared this for such a long time. Please can someone help me.