I have been poorly for 18 months finally after going back and forth for weeks to my gp and A&E they finally decided to refer me on the urgent colonoscopy two week pathway and I'm terrified, I have a strange knot feeling in my colon area that contacts and I can actually feel the area tighten if I touch the area and then it goes away, very small soft stools that I have to go to the toilet multiple times a day to pass. A feeling of constantly needing the toilet 3-4 episodes of filling the toilet with blood. Intense abdominal pain similar to appendix pain and tiredness. Bloating and mucus in my stool and weight loss plus vomiting and flu like feeling. I have had bloods and calprotecin test and ultrasound which came back okay.
but I literally have every single symptom of bowel cancer there could be, I'm utterly terrified about what the colonoscopy will find as a young mum of 2 and 29 years old this feels like an absolute nightmare.
my anxiety is through the roof and it actually wakes me up f I try to sleep, I've felt that unwell I've barely left the house in 3 weeks.
I would love to be able to speak to someone or make friends with others in a similar situation as most people don't seem to realise how scared and unwell I'm feeling including my partner who just says it will be fine it'll just be piles etc, and deep down I have a terrible feeling something is badly wrong. I just wish my GP had listened to my concerns when my symptoms first started or that I had advocated for myself better at the start as I feel like now it's been left outcome isn't going to be a good one. I have a private consultation with a colo rectral specialist tomorrow and I'm just hoping that this provides some reassurance while I wait for my urgent referral.
Charl x