Don’t know what to do

I don't know what to do right now;

 

I was put on the cancer pathway back in April, and have X-ray, scans, MRI etc, and then got told it's probably nothing and ive kind of moved on from it. But all this over the few months brought me down a lot, and I guess because I'm close to my partner I acted as how I truly feel around him instead of saying 'I'm fine' as I do to everyone else. 
 

but yesterday I got a letter from the hospital saying there's a lump and im having an ultrasound and biopsy. I just feel thrown into turmoil, and have had a meltdown. What hasn't helped is arguing with my partner all day; he is saying how I've made him feel so down and worn out with how I've been, crying all the time and that he's being pushed close to the brink of not giving a ***. He wants me to be happy but says im the only one who can make myself happy, but how can I 'cheer up' after getting that letter yesterday?

i want to save my relationship, but im questioning it, i feel stuck and I don't know what to do, please help

  • Hello Ralphtheshark

    I'm sorry to hear that you've been having some investigations over the past few months. It's understandable that it's impacted how you've been feeling and behaving during this time. 

    It can often help to talk to someone during times like this and I wonder if you might find it helpful to chat with one of our team of nurses. If you'd like to speak to them they're available Monday to Friday 9 am to 5 pm on 0808 800 4040. I'm sure they will be happy to offer any advice and support they can about your upcoming biopsy and ultrasound. 

    In terms of your relationship, it sounds like you and your partner need to have a real heart-to-heart conversation about how you're both feeling, what the two of you want to do, and the best way forwards to achieve that. If you find it too difficult to talk to him then you could consider writing a letter explaining things as a starting point. 

    I do hope that the upcoming investigations give you some answers and reassurance and that in turn things, in general, improve for you. 

    Best wishes, 
    Jenn
    Cancer Chat moderator