I am going to sound like an utter fool. However please bear with me!

I'm mid 50s , post menopause, two gorgeous young teens and a hapless but loveable husband.

Diagnosed 6 months back (CT scan with contrast) with diverticular disease.  Changed diet, took up exercise, lost some weight and felt great. But 8 weeks ago, began with pain in breast. Breast clinic mammogram and ultrasound all clear. 

Meantime the pain actually moved and is now constant in side of boob, rib 9 area and into area below shoulder blade.  Saw a bone Dr, he ruled out costochondritis, said he was stumped and ordered a CT scan (still waiting).  He did x ray of chest which didn't show any fractures etc.

So while limping along with unexplained and worrying side pain, along comes lower back pain and gas.  And then the cherry on the cake - very bright red blood all in among my poop and tissue when I wipe.

 I have a gastric Dr due to the diverticular disease so I've booked to see her tomorrow.  It's actually getting embarrassing now, how many things are going wrong with me! 

And so, of course, mainly due to losing my mother to cancer the day before my twins were born (labor pains during a funeral anyone!?), but also due to my dear husband and kids whom I simply cannot burden with this, I am convinced that I have either 1) BC spread to liver (despite mamo and US being clear), or liver cancer (due to right side pain) or rectal cancer due to the bleeding, lower back pain and gas. 

I'm getting the tests I need. I'm fortune to have private care (were temporarily based abroad for work).  But I'm quietly going mad, while my family goes on oblivious.  

Can anyone make sense of my signs? Any words of comfort, similar feels, signs or even just a virtual hug? Thank you xx