my gp referred me to the breast clinic on Monday after I told Him i had found a small lump / bump and I have been lucky to get a very quick response from my local hospital, my appointment is next Monday, so will only have been waiting a week from seeing gp.

I am normally a very calm and logical person but since Monday that part of my personality seems to have disappeared, my anxiety seems to be getting steadily worst, on one hand I am worried about the appointment and what the outcome will be but then if they said I could go earlier I would snap their  hands off. 

I hate feeling like this, last couple of days I have been waking up and doing a breast check to see if the lump is still there and  also to see if I can find anything else wrong. I know is the wrong thing to do With all the checking I have realised I am making my breast more sore so trying today to stop checking it. 

I know I only have 4 days to wait and a lot of people on here are having to wait longer but today I am extremely weepy and stressed, I even tried to do some knitting to keep me occupied but kept getting the pattern wrong so had to give that up. Does anyone have anything they are doing or have done that’s kept the anxiety at bay.

sorry for the long rant, i am normally someone who keeps everything to themselves but I am trying not to worry my husband too much as I know he is really worried about this and does not know what to say to me to help.  I have realised these last couple of days that unless you have or are going through this process you do not really understand how people feel or what to say.