Hi everyone,

I'm coming up 5 months PP from recently having a baby boy. Since having him, I've had terrible health anxiety which drives me crazy. A few months ago I was terrified a mole had change and had melanoma. I went through a phase of checking my body. I noticed a couple of months ago that my left armpit looked ever so slightly different to my right. Nothing too obvious and it isn't sore/tender and when I touch it, all I can feel is muscle and when it's relaxed, I can't feel anything. Just squishy. So I just dismissed it. 
 

Fast forward two months to now, I started with horrendous pain and tingling in my left breast before, during and a few days after my period which does seem to be subsiding now. But I was so scared that it was BC I called my doctor. She didn't check me over, she just said it was in my head an upped my medication and if symptoms persist that I should go back but give it a week for meds to kick in. Anyway, today I got out of the shower and as I lifted my arm up, I noticed a dimple on the underside of my left breast. Straight away I called the GP and was 17th in queue, I gave up and contacted our private healthcare instead. I've now got an appointment in 48 hours at a one stop breast clinic where they'll do physical checks, mammogram and ultrasound and a biopsy if it's needed on the day and will get most the results back same day (apart from biopsy). I've checked my breast and I don't think I can feel anything that's too concerning and if I have felt something, I've also felt it on the other side too. So no "noticeable" lumps as such and other than the one small dimple, there's nothing else changed on my breasts. The thing is, I don't know how long the dimple has been there. I'm now questioning myself as to whether my slightly different armpit is linked and I've left it too long to do something. This is probably the darkest place I've ever been in. 
 

Statistically, I have numbers on my side as there's no history of breast cancer at all in either side of my family and I'm in the age group where its relatively rare to have (27) it but obviously I'm ignoring this and thinking worst possible case.

I've turned to doctor google and everything is just pointing to breast cancer and it's terrifying me. I'm newly married with two small children and I feel so ill at the thought of it being serious. I'm hoping it's just down to hormonal changes in my body from my recent pregnancy but of course I can't help but worry. 
 

I'm sorry that this is so long winded, I'm not sure what I'm looking to get out of this really. Maybe some words of reassurance? I don't know. 
 

if anyone could reply, I'd really appreciate it because I feel like I'm losing my sense of personality. The only good thing that I can focus on is that, this time in 48 hours I will have definite answers and won't be thinking about "what ifs" anymore. I'm just hoping and praying it's something benign.  
 

thank you