Hi [@shambles]‍ 

These waiting times are something we all struggle with, your mind is in overdrive and you can't help but think the worse, then you try and rationalise it, but just as quick your back to thinking the worst.....

You are not alone, and I know as I write that it sounds terrible.... it's not as if that is going to help in anyway shape or form.... Unfortunately, it is something you have to find a way to just get through it and I wish I could tell you a quick fix. If it is getting you down, that enhances these feelings. It is great that you have an appointemtn so quickly, try not to read too much into that though, Breast Clinics were always on a two week referral, which meant from GP to them you shouldn't wait longer than two weeks to be seen, with Covid these waiting times did end up being stretched but it might just mean in your area things are back on track and they have appointments.

try not to google, this can be a very scary place when your in a spin and doesn't do anything to help, it is easy to say and not to do and I myself have been just as prone to it, but looking now, when you have no idea what is going on will just scare you and give you more to worry about, when you have seen the breast team and they give you information, googling will help you to gain more clarity, in the specific area, whether that be Cysts, Fibroademas or even cancer. 

Just focus on today.... and each day focus only on that day. I hope it all goes well for you xx

Thank you. I not told any of my family except other half as don't want to worry anyone as it's probably just something that I have to do 

Thank you for you reply. Trying to keep myself busy.

I was the same, I told my best friend, my daughter and then later my Dad... The rest of my family still don't know I am a year on from Surgery now... You will be surprised when you look back at this how far you have come and how well you actually dealt with it, even if it doesn't feel like it right now!

I am pleased you have told your other half and I hope they are being supportive, if not give them a smack round the head!!

I think it's hit me with the sad news that Sarah Harding died today. Really sad even though I don't like their music. But still sad to read about it.

[@shambles]‍ I am so glad you wrote this post as I have just this morning been referred to Breast Clinic after being told intially to wait two weeks to see if the lump disappears. Like you my mind is going crazy, I am struggling to focus at work today and I cant tell my boss as worried I will go into tears, and it could all be for no reason. 

I was at a friends yesterday when someone came into the garden and shared about Sarah Harding, luckily my friend who was there knew about the lump and just smiled and said that is why you are being brave and calling the GP tomorrow. 

My mind is now what happens at the Clinic, when will I know etc. 

[@Sazdaz]‍ 

Well done for phoning, and pleased you got an appointment. 

I had no option but to tell me boss today as i was meant to inducting a new starter, and I explained that I needed take some time off. I then said it was for an appointment for a breast clinic. She then asked family history or something I found. The latter. Very supportive, I said I did not want to tell, and then one of my colleagues said you lucky to get out an afternoon. Obviously they were aware of why? I just said yeah afternoon in a pub!!! 

But I have seriously told her this conversation has not happened and I am probably worrying about nothing. 

But there always that possibility..

Good luck X 

I feel the same it's terrible xxx 

Like sazdaz I am also so glad that [@shambles]‍ wrote this post.

I watched Lorraine this morning and they mentioned about checking your breasts which I did and found a lump/bump, contacted my GP and was lucky enough to be able to go and see the GP this afternoon, he explained that he did not know what the lump was and said he would refer me to the breast clinic. When I was with the GP I was calm and in a way thankful that I was going to be referred.

Once home i searched google, which I know I should avoid  and started to over think everything the GP had said despite the fact that the GP had told me not to read anything into him straight away referring me to the breast clinic, which at the time the logical part of my brain understood. so in 1 evening I have gone from being calm & rational,  to  numb, anxious and really scared. Its going to be a long 2 weeks. It’s the not knowing what it is and waiting that I will struggling with 

Tonight i have found reading  these posts so helpful and reassuring that I am not alone with these types of feelings. Fingers crossed that we are all ok

Morning 

So appointment is booked for a 11 days time, at a hospital a bit further than my nearest one due to availablity but at least they have booked me in. 

I feel a bit more settled now around it all, though Monday was tough I couldnt focus on work well so my other half called my boss and spoke to her. She was so understanding and messaged me later to say she was there if I needed a chat, and that there will be times I will struggle to focus till the appointment and that was ok. 

I have tried convincing myself the lump has gone down, but my partner felt it and said it was the same, isnt it amazing how our mind works at times like this. 

I will just be glad to have an answer either way once we have been as if not cancer I still need to get to the bottom of the other symptoms such as night sweats and stomch bloating as well as the sudden weight loss.