Finally..Mole appointment tomorrow, v. anxious, need to talk

I got a call today asking me to attend hospital tomorrow under the 2 week rule. I'm relieved that I have an appointment but at the same time my anxiety is hitting the roof. I've got myself so worked up with what will be said and done tomorrow. I've just had so many aches and pains in my body these past couple of days and right now when I breath I feel upper back pain, arm, shoulder pain and have a headache. I keep having awful dreams every night and I even kept waking up saying the word melanoma. I know this could be part of the build up of going to my appointment. I need someone to talk to but no one knows as I'm trying to keep it together for my children. 

  • I'm so glad you've got your appointment now & that it's today as a further wait would just make your worry worse.

    I know it's daunting but hopefully this appointment may be able to calm your fears. They are used to patients who are very stressed and anxious so don't be afraid to tell them how anxious this is making you. 

    Meanwhile, do you have a close friend you can confide in? They may not fully understand your fears but just unloading onto a good friend can help put things into perspective and calm things down a little. Don't be afraid to reach out to someone you trust, we all need someone to have our back at times like this.

    Good luck this afternoon and please let us know how you get on,

    Angie x

  • Thank you [@AngieT]‍ 

    i greatly appreciate your support over this past week. I'm just frightened and not talking to anybody is just making it worse. Everyone is so busy in their own life's that I feel I shouldn't be saying anything until I know how today goes. I will definitely tell hospital how I am feeling as I will probably burst into tears as soon as walk in. I'm holding it in for my two boys at the moment. Think my older one knows that I'm quiet and that something must be going on. I'm scared of the unknown just like every other person. I will let you know how I get on.

  • Just an update...

    Hi so sorry for the late reply. Can’t believe what a rollercoaster it has been this week and a half. I am very thankful for al the support, I went to my appointment and was seen quite quickly. The nurse was lovely and I told her how anxious I have been and I had a cry. She looked at the big mole on my back and understood why I was so worried as it was very similar to melanoma but she assured me
    Mine definitely isn’t cancerous and that it was seborrhoeic keratoses. I had another cry when she gave me this news. There were loads of these spots under my breasts too but the biggest one which was like a mole was on my back. She told me not to worry and has said to keep an eye on it and go back to the doctors if I felt there were changes to it. I’m so relieved. Now I just have to work out why my left shoulder is causing me pain for no reason which worries me and now I’ve been looking to see if my lymph nodes are swollen, I think too much prodding has made it sore. I also have an endoscopy in a week and a bit, hoping that goes ok too. It never stops.

  • I'm so glad that the nurse put your mind at rest regarding your mole and spots. Your shoulder pain could be due to any number of problems, especially if you've been prodding & poking the area. If it hasn't settled down in 2 weeks I would see your GP. Meanwhile, keep an eye on the 'mole' as she advised - perhaps take a photo today and then once a week for the next few weeks. If there are any changes then see your GP again but I'm pretty sure it will be fine. Good luck with the endoscopy & hopefully things will start to settle down now. xx