Hi 

I had a 3cm lump plus calcifications which took the total area to be removed to 7cm's. Unfortunately it was cancer. But totally treatable. I was so worried I'd get hideous news. But all was ok. I had an operation to remove all the nastiness and have kept most of my boob. They got it all out first time so no more surgery needed. They took 3 of my lymph nodes to test too - all clear. 

I've just started 4x rounds of chemo. I'll have 10 radiotherapy treatments and then take hormone tablets for up to 10 years. 

Not the easiest journey to have to take. But ... I'm already cancer free from the operation. The other stuff is to minimise the chance of reoccurance. I was told that the majority of breast cancers are treatable these days, especially if they are confined to the breast. 
 

Try not to worry (easier said I know!). Once you get your results you'll have a plan in place straight away to get you on the road to getting it all sorted. 
 

Love Sarah xx 
 

Thank you bless you.  You replied to my last post too!

Yes I almost think the waiting is worse than knowing isn't it!  I don't know how people that struggle with mental health anyway cope with this sort of thing I generally think I'm quite calm and measured (I run a support group) and I'm still having moments of oh crap what if what if. Xx

Hey. I know EXACTLY what you mean. The two week wait for results was probably the worst time in my life to date. I couldn't sleep or eat, anxiety made me think I had symptoms of terminal cancer on a daily basis. When consultant told me it was totally treatable I burst into tears. It was good having my kids around as had/have to be rational for their sake. I also found that all my family/friends were being so lovely but kept telling me not to worry! All will be fine! I had to stop myself from either screaming 'How do you know?' and 'But it's NOT you!' in their face. Or just waking away! Bless them all though they're being amazing! 
 

When is your results appointment? 
 

Just realised I've repeated myself massively from my reply to your last post Oh well it doesn't hurt to reiterate positive outcomes eh! 
 

Sarah xx 

It's on Wednesday first thing.  I googled the guys name that is in the letter and reviews for him were all really good saying he was very kind and understanding as well as being good at what he does.  I generally don't like drs which doesn't help.  My coeliac disease was missed for 28 years not one dr thought it remotely odd that every blood test I ever had was very anaemic.  Had tests at two and they didn't work out what it was.  And the fibro well half of them still think it's not a thing because that's what they used to be taught so they label you as some kind of neurotic idiot that makes stuff up for fun  most recent studies show its auto immune which makes sense cos I have other auto immune stuff.

One of my legs didn't work at one point if I laid down I couldn't lift it up, it just wouldn't move and dr didn't see any reason to investigate it, like umm yeah that's totally normal isn't it.  Saw a chiropractor I paid who said my nerves weren't firing properly (not sure why or how!) and managed to fix it.  I'm quite mistrusting of medical people.  

Feel kinda a bit funny about a strange bloke man handling my boobs too which I know is absolutely ridiculous! Xx

Hmmm. Not ideal when you've had some bad experiences honey. What part of the country are you in? I'm in Brighton. Can't fault the care this far. Hopefully you will be the same. Wednesday is not long to wait. That's good. If you get the chance let me know how it goes. Will be thinking of you. I'm due my second chemo blast on Friday. It has come round super fast which bizarrely I'm thinking is a good thing! I've not been too poorly at all after the initial one. Hoping it lasts! 
 

Re strange men/boobs. My son said 'Mum so do you not mind getting your boobs out loads in front of strangers?' :)) 

Sarah xx 

I have cancer grade 3 and it's in my lymph nodes too they need to do scans see if it's spread anywhere else.  All I keep thinking about is my kids

Thank you.  They said I need a masectomy unless I'm very averse to that and then they said they could do another biopsy to see if they can save any but I said no get rid of much as possible.  I have a bone scan booked for the 6th sept they need to do a ct scan too I am just hoping and praying they are clear.  My son first day at his new school is 6 sept and he has special needs so trying to see what we can do re that because I obvs don't want any delays to my scans.

They said 3 nodes looked suspicious I don't know if that is good or not or if there's more they said it's hormonal which apparently is a plus.

I knew it would be positive but I thought because it isn't very big it wouldn't have spread and he said that isn't anything to do with it people can have tiny ones and it can have spread.  Tried to ask questions but your brain goes and he said I was getting too ahead of myself with the what ifs and to wait and see.  Husband is devastated said not to even talk about dying cos isnt gonna happen x

Absolutely no need to even think about dying honey! Let alone talk about it! It will be a bumpy old road but you will be OK.

Yes waiting for the scans/results will be awful there is no point trying to sugarcoat that bit so I'm not even going to try.

Mine was hormone positive and yes out of a bad bunch that is a good thing. It means you can take hormone tablets and according to my oncologist they are they best form or defence against reoccurance after all your cancer is gone. 

These next couple of weeks will be the hardest as it's still the unknown and that for me produced the most fear - it's totally understandable. But ... Once you have all the info and your treatment starts I think you'll feel more in control. I most certainly did. Our lymph nodes are there to do a job and that is to stop infections spreading around our bodies. From what I've read on here some women have just a few removed, some have the whole lot (like my friend). I'm sure you will find other women on here that have been in an almost identical situation to you and that they will be able to ease your worries - even just a small amount.

Another really good info site is breastcancernow.org I have found things on there really helpful too. People are different of course, but I wanted to find people in my situation and also as much info as I could that was accurate - forget Dr Google!

I'm here for you too. Love Sarah xxxxxx