New lump

don't really know what to do. I went to my doctor to investigate a swelling after my second COVID jab. The swelling occurred under my arm and around the injection. I read up and realised with the jab I had it was a side effect. But I went to the doctors anyway after being told by 111 to if it didn't start to go down. 
I wasn't expecting what happened to happen. The doctor examined me and told me yes the swelling was a side effect. He asked to check my boobs whilst I was there and asked if I check them regularly. Which I said yes but wasn't sure if o was doing it right. He checked both and said he could feel something in my left breast the side where the swelling was. He put my fingers to the place but I couldn't feel anything. My mum and my dad and my grandad on my mums side all had cancer. My mum is coming out of breast cancer and is in remission which honestly I have no words for how happy I am. As she was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2018 and was cleared in 2019 after a awful year of treatment. 
The doctor said due to my family history to refer me to a breast clinic for a ultrasound. I'm due to go in a few days but I can't sleep and I am struggling with fear and worry. I don't know what I expect you to do or say. But I'm feeling my breasts and some days I feel like I can't feel anything the next I do. I honestly don't know what to do. My mind is going into overdrive and im now wondering if other pain or things recently could be cancer. I'm thinking so irrational and I know I am but I can't help it. I'm even convincing myself in my gut it's serious. 
sorry as I know everyone is going through this or something like this on here and you all have your own problems. I'm just petrified. I'm trying to hold it together with my partner and family and act strong but im so scared. I'm 35 and I saw what my mum had to go though i feel selfish for being so scared and praying that it's nothing serious. 

  • Don't be sorry! This is the whole point of this forum! It's perfectly normal and reasonable to be scared, especially when you start googling and all the rest. But you are definitely, definitely not being selfish!  I'm in a pretty similar situation. 
     

    I had a chest x ray a few weeks ago after a visit to hospital for slight chest pain. Had a chest x ray and ECG and then I aas told the pain was probably muscular but everything was fine. Then I had a phone call from a consultant a few days later saying that when a radiologist viewed my X-rays, they identified enlarged lymph nodes in my chest, so they referred me for a ct scan. CT scan identified lymph nodes in chest were still enlarged and so they are now doing a biopsy to test them for cancer. They mentioned lung cancer and lymphoma and it is absolutely terrifying. I have no other symptoms, no cough, fatigue, weight loss etc but you worry all the time and that's just a natural human reaction. 
     

    I'm in the same position as you regarding my family - trying to hold it together for them - but I am terrified and that's perfectly normal. My fiancé has been so amazing.

    All we can do is wait for answers, which I'm sure will be fine for you.

    You are in no way selfish for hoping everything will be okay. Just make sure you surround yourself with the ones you love and I'm sure you'll get the best possible news!

     

    Good luck! Let me know how it goes! 

     

  • Thank you so much for your reply. I feel so helpless and like I'm waiting to be told something terrible I have no control over. It feels like a nightmare that I'm actually having to live through. The waiting and the not knowing. Honestly these feelings are terrible. But I know you know and I'm praying and hoping that you also get some positive news. All we can do is hope I guess but the wait and the thinking I know I have convinced myself it's going to be bad but I honestly don't know what I'm going to do if it is. 
     

    I really hope you get some positive news. It's just so awful how this disease rips through so many lives 

     

    sending my love to you and your family. X