I understand how you feel, it's difficult to switch off worries and not to look ahead especially when you have things planned. I have three celebration things the week following my appointment and feel the same, 

I have an appointment at the clinic a week on Thursday and I am feeling very shaky about it all. Been googling how much private clinics would be as I can't eat or do anything whilst worrying and waiting. I wish I could be seen this week.

hope it all goes ok for you

I have my appointment on Thursday and I am absolutely terrified. As it is drawing nearer, I'm now scared of what they may tell me and due to the way the mass presents and where it is, I'm fearing the worst. Not sleeping, not eating and I've lost nearly a stone in weight this past fortnight.

Hi Ellie56, 

Bless you, I know exactly how you are feeling, I couldn't eat or sleep either and also lost weight due to panic and worry when I was waiting for my result appointment to the point where I had to contact my gp for some help to be able to sleep!  It is the sheer terror of what may be said to you and all sorts of scenarios running through your mind it's complete and utter rubbish!

You don't have long to wait now, fingers crossed on Thursday all will be good and you can begin to relax a little. 
 

wishing you lots of luck and best wishes xx 

Hi Amg122, thanks for the reply, good wishes and same to you and same here. I also had to contact the doctor for a prescription to help me sleep about a week into waiting, but as of yet I've not taken it. It's not that I don't need it, I do, because at the most I'm getting about an hour most nights and I've been awake since 2pm this morning.......... I figure I will probably need the sleeping pills more from Thursday onwards. I'm convinced, I know, it's going to be bad news.

I'm just a total wreck.

Ellie56,

My own experience I found that even taking the sleeping tablet once whilst I was feeling in limbo just like you helped quite a bit because my brain had a rest from all of the worry and stress and I felt a little stronger after a better nights sleep. 
The days feel like years when you are waiting for something like this but it's nearly here, you will feel better when you get answers the waiting I have found is one of the worst parts xx 

My wife recently went through the same thing. She had found a lump in her breast and estimated she had it for about a year but didn't think too much of it, until it started to change shape and enlarge slightly. She had no pain so automatically we feared the worst). She went to the GP and they thought it was probably just a gland or cyst and referred her to the breast clinic at the local hospital for a check. The two weeks were agony waiting for the appointment to come around, especially trying not to think about it and worrying about all the worst case scenarios. At the appointment the surgeon agreed with the GP but sent her for an ultrasound to be sure. The Sonographer thought it looked suspicious so took a biopsy for testing. We had to wait another week for the results to come in (great, more waiting!) -  The waiting is THE worst part! We had a christening and a wedding vows renewal in the middle of all of this, which was hard, especially with this in the back of our minds. My wife got the call from the hospital a week later and luckily it turned out to be a blocked duct, completely benign. The relief was amazing. I am posting this because during our 3 week wait, reading all the different experiences on endless threads gave me a lot of comfort and hope and I just want to share our story to give something back, because you don't often see a lot of people posting results after the event

On a personal level, I have had a brush with cancer a few years ago where I did get a diagnosis (all good now!), so I can speak from experience that waiting is definitely the worst part. For me, what helped was meditation, calming the mind and staying in the present, moment to moment, it really does have a positive effect on anxiety. 

Hi Lenamay,

Sorry to hear you're in a similar position. The wait is torturous isn't it? I am trying my best to keep busy and stay distracted, but come night time I'm googling the same things over and over again.

Thank you so much. I hope your appointment goes well!

Hi Ellie56,

Sorry to hear you're in a similar position and how the anxiety has been affecting you. I think the worry is making me lose my appetite, but then I worry the loss of appetite is a symptom! It's a viscous cycle. I wish you all the best for your appointment.

Hi Dave82,

Thank you so much for your reply, it has definitely provided me with some reassurance. I'm glad to hear your wife is okay and that you also are, after your diagnosis. 

The wait is just awful. I thought I wouldn't be as anxious this time, as I know roughly what to expect (process-wise) due to having an appointment and scans 13-ish months ago. But the anxiety has most definitely appeared now, along with the constant niggling in the back of my mind. I'm 25 with two young children, so they keep me busy during the day. But come night time I just can't switch off from it. 

I will definitely try some meditation and will keep reminding myself that I shouldn't worry about things that are not happening at this moment in time.

Thanks again.

Hi Frenchie24, I'm sorry to hear you are having a tough time. You shouldn't worry about worrying, it is natural and you can't be too hard on yourself. This stuff, as you have already experienced, is tough. Embracing the feelings you feel (whether anxiety, fear etc etc) actually seems to be the key. Seems counter productive I know! Somehow accepting it for what it is, in the moment, helps dissipate it. Hope it works for you. Take care