This is my first post and although cancer hasn't been mentioned yet in my journey it's very much on my mind. I've got pelvic and abdominal ultrasound scans and a colposcopy coming up this week; the cervical screening came back high grade (moderate) and was coincidentally done around the same time I developed other symptoms that have led to the scan referrals. I'm chatting with my GP again at the end of the week to go through the scans and recent blood results.
My mind is very much cycling between 'these are random mild symptoms and I can find excuses for them all, there's nothing wrong you are just imagining it' and 'I feel really unwell and there could be something serious wrong'. The lack of uncertainty is really tough.
Quite a big fear is that they'll do the scans and say they are all normal and there's nothing wrong. I know that sounds silly, but I think I want an explanation for the symptoms and almost need my worries to be validated somehow, or that I'm worried I've made it all up and have made a fuss for nothing... does anyone else recognise those feelings?
