Hi all

whilst waiting for my two week urgent referral appointment I've reading this forum which has been so helpful and actually calmed my nerves! 
 

I'm 30 and about two months ago I felt a noticeable lump the size of a 50p coin deep in my left breast, there was a second lump slightly more to the surface that was noticeable but not as hard. Ive not yet had any children and to give you some context, a female in my immediate family had breast cancer a few years ago, which was missed twice and then a third time on her annual mamogram. Which we later found out from the trust director that it did show up on her mammogram but they decided to not do anything about it. 
 

Given this history, I'm sure you can imagine that has made me very alert with checking my breasts monthly after my period, and with all the correct guidance. Given that, when I found these lumps, I can't describe it... but they just didn't feel the same or right to me for me breast. I've also had light yellowing on my left breast on and off for a few months. I waited and there was no change other than the lump becoming slightly harder so I went to the dr who referred me on an urgent 2 week pathway (given my age over 30). 
 

I had my referral appointment today and I feel even more uneasy than before. The nurse who saw me first was lovely and marked where the lumps were and said she too could see the yellowing along my veins and could feel the lumps. She said I would have an ultrasound given my age. I gowned up and went to ultrasound, I want to start by saying I so appreciate they're busy... but I can't help but feel worse than when I went in. The ultrasound took less than one or two minutes, she then asked me "do you feel satisfied I've checked the areas" I then proceeded to say, "erm it's actually deeper are you able to check around it at all... " to which she kind of brushed me off and said " you're young and it's just breast tissue, which I then said "it's just that I haven't felt a lump like that ever before and I check every month" and then she just said "it's breast tissue and you can go get changed now" and I was rushed out of the room. I was so upset, I felt brushed off because of my age... I wanted to ask questions, I wasn't given the chance, I know breast lumps can come and go but I've never felt it like that before and I can't describe it, it just doesn't feel right. I was so anxious going in which I said to the nurse and it hits really close to home given my experience with my auntie.

Don't get me wrong I WANT it to be nothing and im happy if it's just breast tissue but I have this horrible gut feeling I can't shake that it just doesn't feel right, and that I've just been brushed off because of my age. I don't want it to be anything, but just being told these two hard lumps I've never felt before are just breast tissue and "you're young" has just left me feeling more anxious and more worried that I've just been brushed off. If it is nothing fantastic and I'd love to ignore it and move on but I can't shake this horrible gut feeling it's something more. 
 

I was thinking of maybe waiting another month letting the initial the emotions pass and then if it's still there go for a second opinion or even private if I have too. But even the thought of that is giving me so much stress as these two weeks have been a strong of anxiety and tears. 
 

Am I crazy to feel like this?! 
 

Ka x