Hello, so when I was 21 I had cancerous cells and had a loop excision, every since I think I've only ever had 1 normal smear, 6months ago it came back HPV and luckily I my cells haven't changed, fast forward 6 months and my smear is HPV and abnormal cells, they have found them to be  high-grade dyskaryosis, I'm not sure what this is and wether I'm going to need another loop but I'm so anxious as the loop I had il never forget and would like to be put to sleep this time around,I go to the clinic Friday for a biopsy. I'm worried that one day I'm going to get cervical cancer as I'm having rubbish results every time I'm checked. Has anybody had this before? 
I would appreciate your feedback