Breast biopsy - results tomorrow evening and panicking

Hi all,

I get the results of my breast biopsy tomorrow and getting in a terrible state. 

I was doing a breast trial and had an enhanced mammogram that showed a 3cm mass. I went for a biopsy a few weeks ago but they took tissue from the wrong area. Had another, this time in the mammogram machine which I can only compare to some sort of medieval torture as the local anaesthetic didn't work and it was very painful for about half an hour. A very nice nurse reassured me afterwards and explained that it could be one of two things, cancer or schlerosing lesion.

I've always been the anxious type but since then I have been having panic attacks, crying all the time and really thinking the worst. I'm currently working from home and not back into the office (due to lockdown) until Thursday but didn't do much work today at all. I just sat on the computer googling everything and getting in a worse state. I even called my doctor to see if there was anything I could do to stop the panic attacks but all he could offer was diazepam but I didn't really want to go down that route as already on anti-anxiety meds since my daughter died last year. I seem to be overreacting over everything right now and feel like a horrible person. Is this normal?

  • Hi 

    Sadly yes all the emotions you are experiencing are normal, our minds can go into overdrive at times especially of stressed and of course waiting for results. 

    Most of us use Dr Google which we all know is the worse thing to do but it's like telling a child not to open the sweet jar.

    All I can say is your not alone as saying don't worry never works. 

    Have they given you a date for results?

    Here If you need to chat.

    Louise xx

  • Hi Louise,

    Thank you for replying. The result date is tomorrow (30/06/21) and I had the second biopsy two weeks ago. My son and daughter were like "I'm sure it will be fine" and then pretty much changed the subject. I don't really know what to say right now, I'm just so scared and feel so alone. I'm not sure whether to ask my brother or sister-in-law to come with me but it may be a bit short notice now.

    Yvette xx

  • Hi Yvette

    How old are your son and daughter it may be they just don't know what yo say and also are worried. 

    Did the hospital say you could take someone? I was allowed to when I got my results after my biopsy. Ask them you never know one of them may be able to its worth a shot.

    Xxx

  • Hi,

    I'm 53 by the way, sorry I should have said. My son is 32 and daughter 34. I think they are worried as well and I'm not sure if they can take much more grief. My daughter has recently been a carer for her twin sister's (my daughter who died last year) mother-in-law who also has breast cancer. My mum died two years ago of breast cancer, too :-(

    I've sent a text to my brother so fingers crossed. I'm sure they said it was ok. To be honest though, I can't remember.

  • I think the waiting is almost the worst part isn't it?

    Am waiting to have a second biopsy (no cancer found 1st time but they want to check again-of course feeling weird mixture of relief and stress)

    Of course I googled but managed to stick to sites like this, and wrote down all the questions I thought I might want to ask.

    Definitely take someone with you - they won't say no I'm sure, as you need to have another pair of ears there listening. 

    Will keep my fingers crossed for you as I do know exactly  how you feel. Remember, as someone said to me, you are feeling an appropriate emotion at an appropriate time, so don't feel bad about it.

    X

  • Hi again Louise and Brummiemom‍ 

    Thanks for your advice, especially with regards to having someone with me. My sister-in-law came and to be honest I don't know how I would have got through it all without her there. I'm afraid it is crap news. I am now awaiting surgery on the 16th July for ductal carcinoma in situ (DCIS). I pretty much knew as soon as I went in that it was not good as the surgeon was sat there with the nurse. It is still a bit of a shock though and hasn't really sunk in and I feel strangely calm about it all.

    XX

  • Hi Brummiemom,

    When is your 2nd biopsy? I hope you don't have to wait too long.

    You were so right about about another pair of ears listening. I have literally forgotten everything they told me now and it's only been half a day! 

  • Hi Ms Badger

    Sorry to read your news, but glad you managed to have someone with you, I know I was glad my partner came with me he asked questions I didn't even think of. 

    Your family will be shocked but will support you through this, plus this site and also breastcancernow.org is a great help. 

    Happy to chat anytime.

    Louise xx

  • So sorry to hear your news.  I am in the waiting week at the moment and it is agony.  I guess when you know it is better than this whatever the news.

    Sending you my best wishes and hope all goes well for you.  So thankful for this forum

    X

  • Hi MsBadger

    So sorry to hear your news but really sending you lots of positive thoughts- this  is totally treatable, you are really going to be looked after and things are going to happen very quickly for you now. 

    Have a friend going through this (dcis- op then radiotherapy) and she says is looking at it as  a few months out of her life she just has to get through to get her life back...

    I wish you all the very best  and  keep posting- it helps so much knowing that there are other people who understand what you're going through.

    My second biopsy isn't until the end of July- hoping this is a good sign that they're not really worried but do think they suspect something like dcis or lcis when they said wanted to rule out 'precancerous cells'....so quite a while to wait. Some good days when I can forget about it  and some bad days where I literally choose funeral hymns because I think they'll actually find lobular cancer...

    X