Hi everyone. 

Please bear with me on this long post!

I had my Moderna vaccine on Saturday 8th may ...on the Thursday evening I noticed the little lump I have had on my collarbone for 2 years (I assume it's a lymph node) felt a little larger than usual. I put it down to having had the vaccine.  The following day I felt another node just above my collarbone too. 

I have health anxiety so immediately did an econsult to get into see a doctor.  By the Sunday evening it was apparent I also had "covid arm"

I went to see a doc on the Monday who could also feel the nodes although he said he wasn't entirely sure the biggest one was a node and it was probably all linked to the vaccine but he'd refer me for a non urgent scan. 

The biggest node decreased in size and the other one has stayed the same...it's not very big tbh but I'm aware it's there. 

2 Saturdays ago I noticed 2 or 3 nodes had come up on my neck too (same side) ....cue going back to the docs.  She could feel them but said they feel like normal healthy lymph nodes which are probably fighting an infection of some kind.  

I have suffered from costochondritis in the past and after the vaccine it seemed to flare up again, but it felt a little different from last time so this worried me too. I had a chest x-ray last week and am awaiting the results which I'm petrified for. 

I have a scan of the collarbone nodes on 7th July. 

I'm absolutely petrified I have lymphoma or leukemia or even a cancer somewhere else which has spread to my lymph nodes.  I've been getting a soreish throat and weird fullness feeling in my ears, but I don't know if anxiety is causing that. 

I know there is nothing I can do until I've had tests and results but it's eating away at me and I can't stop googling, which I know is not in the least bit helpful!! 

I don't know why I've posted really...I'm just besides myself with worry and was hoping I could maybe find some reassuring words. 

Sending much love to all x