Waiting for clinic appointment tomorrow

Hi all, 

I have my breast clinic appointment tomorrow after finding a pea sized hard lump on the side of my left breast. The doctor i saw didnt actually feel this lump but did find another one about 2cm long in the shape of a pebble! After lots of googling I now think that what I found is a hard lymph node which, in my mind, means that the cancer has spread! I sound crazy i know....from feeling ok one minute to planning my funeral, having meltdowns and feeling distraught that ill be leaving behind my husband and 7 year old girl!! 

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  • You're absolutely not alone. I've also got my breast clinic appointment tomorrow after finding a pea sized lump and I've genuinely made myself ill thinking of every possibility, I've never been more stressed in my life, google is certainly not our friend!! I truly hope everything goes well for you tomorrow and try to stay calm tonight (easier said than done, believe me I know!!) 

  • Hi there, thanks for the post! 

    Its surreal isn't it! I've just spend the past hour looking for a decent chemo wig! I guess its my way of trying to gain an ounce of control over something that is completely out of my control!! Google is terrible...I work for the NHS as well and constantly tell patients to keep away from the Internet.. and look what I'm doing ha. Think I've read every breast cancer story there is. How are you managing? There are no words are there. Fingers crossed for your appt also xx

  • I'm the same, every ache and pain I feel I'm convincing myself it's something scary and then googling it which has led me to believe I've got all sorts now! Ever since I got my appointment letter I've been horrendously stressed, I just keep imagining the worst and thinking of my wee boy. I think my husband is a bit fed up of hearing me ramble on x

  • I know exactly how you feel. Its manageable until you start thinking about your children and then its horrendous!! A very slow torture running through all scenarios then going down the rabbit hole of how your child will cope without a mum...gosh, that's the worst thought and I have to quickly come out of that line of thinking!! What will be will be and like everything, just have to crack on with it. Roll on tomorrow and hopefully some answers (although I'm guessing it'll be another wait with a biopsy). What time is your appointment? Xx

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  • I know exactly how you feel. Its manageable until you start thinking about your children and then its horrendous!! A very slow torture running through all scenarios then going down the rabbit hole of how your child will cope without a mum...gosh, that's the worst thought and I have to quickly come out of that line of thinking!! What will be will be and like everything, just have to crack on with it. Roll on tomorrow and hopefully some answers (although I'm guessing it'll be another wait with a biopsy). What time is your appointment? Xx

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