Confused

8 weeks ago I noticed indents on my right breast. I kept an eye on this incase it went, it didn't. Fast forward 4 weeks and I spoke to gp on phone (by now tenderness in arm pits) who referred me straight away to breast clinic. 2 weeks later I had a mammogram, (pain and discomfort isn't even the words) small boobs, big body didn't help. While waiting in waiting room for ultrasound I was called back in, for them to check my left breast again, yes your right I said left. Was very confused as the reason behind going was for right one. But the first mammogram had found something in my left one. Panic, fear, confusion, lost all covered me at once. I then had my ultrasound which was okish. Think armpit discomfort (hormones) can't see anything with tight breast and can't find anything in left but they had mammograms on screen and I could see it, and it was awful to see knowing its in me. Radiographer said a second opinion was need and maybe in future a biopsies. When I saw consultant straight after ultrasound, he said that because of size that I was to go back in 6months for mammogram to see of any changes. Obviously panic came over me but he kind of, I guess reassured me. Who am I kidding nope am worrying. Then came him looking at my right breast and then concern came. I go back in 4 weeks, well 3 now and have to monitor for any changes, before next appointment if there is to go back sooner. I'm taking photos once a week for me to compare any changes so I don't see things or miss it. But I'm not gonna lie, am worried, scared, anxious not for me or what it could be but for those around me, my family, friends, work, finances. I just wish I knew once and for all. Any advice would be appreciated. Sorry for long post.

  • Hello Panache109, 

    Welcome to Cancer Chat! The not knowing is the hardest thing and it's normal to be anxious as you are waiting for definite answers. Those three weeks can indeed feel like a lifetime and it's a good idea to be taking pictures and to see whether you can spot any changes and to flag anything you notice. Try not to get over preoccupied with it though as it will only make your anxiety worse. You've done all the right things in bringing it to the doctor's attention and all you can do now is wait. Keep distracted and busy if you can and focused on other things as it will help you feel a little less anxious. There are some helpful tips here on how to cope while waiting for news.

    It won't be long now until you get some proper answers and I am keeping everything tightly crossed for you for good results. 

    Best wishes, 

    Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Thank you Lucie. I appreciate your response. I'm trying to get on with everyday life, work, daughter, grandson, partner, family and friends but is at the back of my mind. Mental health doesn't help. Trying to keep positive as that's what everyone wants and needs but took yesterday morning (was on my own) so could dwell, I guess but then pulled myself together and got on with my day. Appointment has come through now 12th July, so fingers crossed will find out next step with right breast indents and then 6 months for mammogram for left breast. As friends say, I don't do things by halves but still, thank you x