Hello I'm Jan and I'm  scared constantly ba out my health, I have complete health anxiety caused by a series of health events the latest is below  , I'm a young 52,and mum of 2

A ct scan shows I have a small bowel loop of inflammation and nasty area causing lymph nodes to be swollen and fat stranding in the messentry and I'm so worried I spend all my time in fear and crying 

this all started in April when I ended up in A&e with bloating and pain (not like tummy pain) I couldn't describe how ill I felt ... i the hospital sent me home with antibiotics for a wee infection and possible diagnosis of IBS ...  a month later the Same happened .. major stomach pain, discomfort, bloating like I was having twins! And a massively raised Crp which dropped in 2 days after antibiotics,  my wee was a horrible colour with a touch of bilarubin .. which the A&e didn't seem bothered about at all, this time a ct scan was done and showed a 30-40cmc loop of small bowel that looked nasty and lymph nodes near were swollen  I was told could be cancer and sent home to be referred to colorectal surgeon ... on checking my records it was  found from an old ct scan taken in 2019 that I didn't know from a previous A&e visit for a uti that I've had this fat stranding problem since then and now I'm terrified it's a type of cancer .. the bowel/stomach bloat & pain  again went away with antibiotics but now  I'm living on a knife edge not knowing when it will happen again .. the colorectal surgeon decided that they would rescan me in 3,months time to check again and compare scans ... I'm on a warning from work for time off over this (3 weeks in total) as I am relatively new to my job but I've been so ill the twice I ended up in A&e .. I feel numb and in limbo  and terrified anything I do can trigger this swelling  to reoccur , I want to exercise to lose weight but I just lie in bed worrying so I'm not  causing any damage tic the problem  in my messentry, terrified to speak to my gp in case I hear something I can't handle