Thank you again Colin.

I do hope your wife is okay! My cousin, best friend and another friend has had pancreatic cancer so I know how terrible this particular cancer is too.....Please tell me how your wife is. You sound so calm and focussed, you must be a great help to your wife. I'm usually calm on the outside (if not paddling like mad under the water) and have had several cancer investigations, but this one, I am more terrified of than ever before. I believe it is because of where it is, because of the op, the disfigurement, and the life changing affects it has on people. I have been doing research (not Google this time) NHS etc. and patient stories....it is indeed a horror story, every time. 

My husband has been in and out of hospital for the last 6 months as he had a massive seizure and they told us he was unlikely to recover. He did. We don't know how. It was a miracle as when we had our video call (myself and our two children) I could see he was close to death. Anyway, that is why he cannot drive now, because of the seizure. And we can't walk to the surgery as we live in a village with no doctor and our surgery is a 20 minute drive away. 

Thank you for getting back to me. You are clearly very level headed. I will try and ring this week and see what transpires.

I truly hope your wife is alright!!! I know, from experience with my friends and family, how awful this particular cancer is too. 

Bassplayer 

p.s. apart from speech difficulties after the op - it is difficult to eat, drink, chew....oh and so it goes on! And, as you may have gathered from my name, I play in a band (albeit not for the past year of course) and sing harmonies. I would never be able to sing again. I know I am thinking the worst, but it's 50/50 isn't it......I need to research as, if the worst does come to the worst, I know that, being alone in that room when they tell me (and Covid restrictions, we still cannot have someone with us) I would not be able to hear or digest what they would be saying.