November last year I was urgent reffered to the dermatologist regarding some moles which I thought had changed and gotten darker. She looked at them all through a microscope only and said they all seemed fine to her apart from one on the right side of my face just infront of my earlobe, she said it looked like it had, had some trauma and mentioned something about the blood vessels. I had stupidly used the sunbeds when I turned 18 and stopped once lockdown came and then went on again for a few months once they re opened and I had got sunburnt on holiday in 2019 and blistered slightly but not in the areas that the moles where in apart from my face.
 

So I was reffered for a puncture removal of the mole. Then the day comes and I was in a gown waiting and the surgeon/dr looked at it and said I'm sure that it looks fine but I will get a second approval, so 3 dr came and all came to the decision that it looked benign and didn't need to be removed. I was quite annoyed as having anxiety I worked myself up for this and it didn't end up getting removed. 
 

I forgot all about the mole situation, had the occasional worry which isn't unusual for me as I am a natural worrier over anything. 
 

Now January this year I had worn a pair of earrings too tight and was not taking them out at night and they were bloody and crusty and then around that time I felt a lump in my left sudbimandilar (I think it is) area and it was tender and sore to touch and I had a sore throat, so I think the piercing must have been infected. 
 

Then mid feb I noticed some lumps in my groin either side ( slightly enlarged I think ) I am quite slim and small for my age (I am 19, few months off 20) and I had recently had a quite bad yeast infection - which made the area down there really dry and cracked and also bled. I also always had strong fishy smelling urine which I always put down not to drinking a lot of water.

In March I went to the doctors about the lumps and also my urine. She felt the lump in my neck and said it felt like it was going down now. She also felt the lumps in my groin and said that they're not suppose to be able to be felt and so she reffered me to have a blood test and also said to do an std test regarding my discharge and the itchy (which was from a yeast infection) I have been with the same partner 4 years so knew and std wouldn't be the case and did it anyway and it came back that I didn't have on and she also gave me a 3 day course of antibiotics for the uti which cleared up. 
 

I got my blood test results back and I was told that I had enlarged red blood cells and I was told to do another blood test to see if it corrected itself. 
 

In this time I developed health anxiety which I think actually stemmed from everything to do with my moles and now I was getting lumps I never linked the two together and the main suspect for me was Lymphoma at the time. I constantly was checking for lumps which made me come across a lump underneath my right collarbone which was moveable but felt hard and was pea sized, this freaked me out and I was crying non stop and from this time I'm constantly convincing myself that I have cancer and everytime I would see something on social media about cancer I would think that it's a sign and I was suppose to see it because I have it. 
 

At this time I had one lump in my left side of my neck under my jaw/ear and one in my collarbone and 2 either sides of my groin. I also found another lump in my left side of my neck slightly above my collarbone but in neck and behind my right ear which feels like bone, I also found one behind the left side of my knee the outer part which was really small like a seed but ball shaped and I could slightly move it. This made me believe I maybe had bone cancer or soft tissue sarcoma. I also then found another lump which feels fatty behind the same knee. 
 

When I had my other blood test it came back as satisficatory and it had corrected itself. 
 

I went back to the doctors about the lumps and also about my anxiety. She said the lumps and said felt really small and the one In my collarbone felt like a fat lump, she never felt the lump behind my knee said she would refer me for an ultrasound I can't remember now if it was urgent or not but I was seen within 2 weeks.

So the day of the ultrasound came and they had messed up my appointment which means I had less time and felt like it was rushed they scanned the ones in my neck, collarbone, behind my ear and in my groin. I heard them said 20mm x 5mm LxW which scared me because at the time I thought of 20cm stupidly and thought omg that is big. I left feeling dissatisfied from this appointment and still worried. 
 

It took a month for the results to come back but they came back in may and I had a phone consultation and she said that they come back as enlarged lymph nodes but they want to find out why they had been enlarged for so long and that I was being urgent reffered to an haematologist. This scared me as now my mind jumped to possible lymphoma or luekemia after Googling what a haematologist was. 
 

But recently I remebered I was due a mole check up with my dermatologist and the date given was in July and it was suppose to be in may. I recently saw some old pictures of my self and thought that my moles actually did get bigger and the dermatologist last year wouldn't of picked up on that because she hadn't seen the size of the moles before she only seen them as they are now. They used to be quite small but after going on holiday in 2019 and also using the sunbeds I don't know if they have turned to melanoma ? I'm really worried now because now I'm linking the lymph nodes to the moles. There's not a drastic change but enough of a change for me to now notice they seem quite dark brown, they're on my stomach and quite shiny but still look one colour and they look round and even. The one that they was going to remove still seems the same but now I'm paranoid thinking that if they did actually remove it would I be having all these lumps now. I also have a lump which has always been atypical, not regular quite jagged but it has a lighter bit of brown in it the dermatologist last year said it looked fine but how when that is a possible sign of melanoma. I just feel like doctors seem to be doing everything so slow like I rang my dermatologist to tell her about the change but I had to speak to the secretary first and she got my email and said she would email me a link to send photos of my moles on which was thursday and she hasn't sent it me, she also said that she would get back to me the same day and she didn't and that the dr who I was under the care for, for my moles was very good with replying and would ring me that day and didn't. 

I was reffered by haematologist to another ultrasound which was today and did a more thorough scan but didn't do my leg because again, my records wasn't passed on even though I've made it clear I have a lump there as well but they just keep on referring me for the ones in my neck and groin when no one has actually felt the one in my leg yet.

At the scan they allowed my mom in with me due to my anxiety. He said he couldn't say much but they looked normal and wasn't necessarily enlarged but they are more prominent due to me being slim, I heard him say one was 7mm which I think was the one in my groin and they will determine from the results if I need a biopsy. He also said they was a few really small lumps around my neck area. 

I am still really worried as just because they don't seem enlarged which I think they are, I could still have melanoma which I am convinced I definitely have and now I'm scared it is too far gone and it is terminal or not curable because I wish they had just removed the moles last year and now I'm thinking the lumps are definitely related to the moles and my family keep saying that moles change when you get older but I'm only 19 I've not gotten much older so surely they wouldn't of grown and also I have used sunbeds which they knew and they just keep saying my moles are fine because the dermatologist said so. But the dermatologist didn't biopsy any so how do they know for sure? And I have seen that they have definitely changed, they are still all under 6mm and only the one seems irregular really but always has been but it has the different colours in it.

I am just really worried I just feel like I'm not being listened too but having anxiety also don't help because I don't speak up to to get my point across and tell them what's wrong and I also keep having my family reassuring me which isn't reassuring to me at all. I really hope that they do biopsy the lumps so they know for sure and don't just go off the biopsy saying they look fine and I'm just skinny so they are more obvious.

Does anyone have any advice.

I am 19 years old