sos help

I,m 46 years old and have been living in denial of my symptoms for nearly thirty years.

At 16 i discovered a lump under my chin then over the next few months more on the inside of my jaw both sides, collar bone both sides, under both arms, groin and one in the back of my head, also lumps on the inside of my lips top and bottom none in cheeks, and some in my private region.

Most are the size of small or large peas or kidney beans ie possibly lymph nodes.

I dont feel ill but i'm now suffering from mjor deppression because of all this due to the fact that i think ive basically had it.

I felt suicidal at times and my nerves are shot, yes i should see a doctor but surely its too late to hope for more than a terminal diagnosis.

Also lumps on both sides of neck.

God knows whats going on inside of me.

I was diagnosed with supraventricular tachicardia at 27 which has slowly gotten worse, i take beta blockers atenolol.

This has basically ruined my adult life although ive managed to live in denial like an idiot and just kept going.

I have a daughter who is nearly 8.

I have googled it obviously so lymphoma comes to mind but doesn't explain my oral lumps/tumours whatever they are.

 

  • Hi

     

    I am sorry you are experiencing this and clearly you are anxious.  Now I do not know about this - although I have seen and talked to many people through my years as a social worker - but you have been surviving all this for 30 years!! Not sure what it will turn out to be but you need at the very least to see a skin specialist.  So please grasp your courage in both hands and consult with a doctor.  You could maybe do this at first by phone.  If you are able you could get some photographs taken to let the Doctor have a look.  Come on now, for you have a lot of living to do alongside that 8 year old.  You can do this.  Whatever you have to deal with, just do it in bite sized chunks.

  • Thanks for your reply, the lumps are under my skin and rubbery to the touch, hard but moveable, i just bthink ive left it far too long for any  hope if it is cancer.

  • Well 30 years is a very long time to have cancer in your body but no treatment.  I wonder if some of the lumps could be some type of cysts which just need removed.  Two members of my family are prone to those.  We should not always assume the worst - where I am concerned I am the best at that lol

     

  • Please see your doctor if only to put your own mind at rest. Ignoring it will not make it go away. xx

  • Hi,

     

    As others have said, you've had this for a long time. If it were cancer I feel as though it would have been very obvious by now - you'd have seen a decline in your health. You haven't mentioned any other symptoms (apart from what you were already diagnosed with) which I think you would have had if it was cancer. I know you don't want to go to the doctor's, and you're scared but if it turns out that it's not cancer (and I'm no doctor but there would have been other symptoms) won't that greatly improve your life? Imagine all of that weight of anxiety lifted off your shoulders. 

     

    Either way, knowing gives you a plan of action. Don't continue to suffer for the assumed and unknown. Please take someone with you, if you can, and go to the doctor.